Huh-
What does it look like for you-

It doesn’t really look like anything, it just doesn’t show anyone’s username when I click on their pfp in the notif bar, it only shows the link to the thread.

If i don’t script i genuinely like physically cannot talk 99% percent of the time

#nonverbalautism 👍 when i can talk i talk but when i can’t i legitimately can’t, this is super common on the spectrum actually I had an autistic friend with higher support needs than me and he was nonverbal unless it’s about his interests then he would happily ramble just like me

Idk what the point was

He's watching

I always have perfectly scripted conversations in my head but in practice they go nothing how I wanted 

Sameee i practice in the shower

If i don’t script i genuinely like physically cannot talk 99% percent of the time

#nonverbalautism 👍 when i can talk i talk but when i can’t i legitimately can’t, this is super common on the spectrum actually I had an autistic friend with higher support needs than me and he was nonverbal unless it’s about his interests then he would happily ramble just like me

I can only talk about things that interest me and on my own accord

If someone else initiates a conversation or it's about something i don't care about i physically can't invest myself in the conversation and just begin the "oh, ooh, hmmm, ah" cycle until they stop

And even then once i finish a conversation i'm pretty much done for the foreseeable future

For example today my lunch got switched and there’s this girl I like Lauren she was just sitting by herself so the entire time I was in the lunch line I was planning out a way to casually sit next to her and I came up with “Hi I don’t know anyone here lmao can I sit with you so I can pretend I’m socially functioning” “sure ok” “so you’re lauren right from spanish class? how do you think you did on that test today because I did not cook” -conversation ensues-

Instead my reality was

Me: H hi *waves even though I’m two feet in front of her*

Lauren: *waves back quietly*

Me: Uh bye *scurries away*

i suspect i may have my neuros divergened a bit which im not trying to self diagnose ofc but if i were somewhat nonverbal it would explain a lot

sometimes its extremely uncomfortable for me to talk to the point where i really have to physically force myself to speak to the point where it makes me feel like im gonna toss my cookies AND THEN i end up either mumbling incoherently or accidentally shouting

Sameee i practice in the shower

ME TOO

And then when I come out my brother is like who were you talking to in there your shampoo bottle

ME TOO 
And then when I come out my brother is like who were you talking to in there your shampoo bottle 

I have much better social interactions with the shampoo bottle than any other human being

If only the world understood me like my bath products do