I always have perfectly scripted conversations in my head but in practice they go nothing how I wanted 

Sameee i practice in the shower

If i don’t script i genuinely like physically cannot talk 99% percent of the time

#nonverbalautism 👍 when i can talk i talk but when i can’t i legitimately can’t, this is super common on the spectrum actually I had an autistic friend with higher support needs than me and he was nonverbal unless it’s about his interests then he would happily ramble just like me

I can only talk about things that interest me and on my own accord

If someone else initiates a conversation or it's about something i don't care about i physically can't invest myself in the conversation and just begin the "oh, ooh, hmmm, ah" cycle until they stop

And even then once i finish a conversation i'm pretty much done for the foreseeable future

For example today my lunch got switched and there’s this girl I like Lauren she was just sitting by herself so the entire time I was in the lunch line I was planning out a way to casually sit next to her and I came up with “Hi I don’t know anyone here lmao can I sit with you so I can pretend I’m socially functioning” “sure ok” “so you’re lauren right from spanish class? how do you think you did on that test today because I did not cook” -conversation ensues-

Instead my reality was

Me: H hi *waves even though I’m two feet in front of her*

Lauren: *waves back quietly*

Me: Uh bye *scurries away*

i suspect i may have my neuros divergened a bit which im not trying to self diagnose ofc but if i were somewhat nonverbal it would explain a lot

sometimes its extremely uncomfortable for me to talk to the point where i really have to physically force myself to speak to the point where it makes me feel like im gonna toss my cookies AND THEN i end up either mumbling incoherently or accidentally shouting

Sameee i practice in the shower

ME TOO

And then when I come out my brother is like who were you talking to in there your shampoo bottle

ME TOO 
And then when I come out my brother is like who were you talking to in there your shampoo bottle 

I have much better social interactions with the shampoo bottle than any other human being

If only the world understood me like my bath products do

If someone else initiates a conversation or it's about something i don't care about i physically can't invest myself in the conversation and just begin the "oh, ooh, hmmm, ah" cycle until they stop

Saaaame

But if they just mention something I like I'm immediately invested

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